Monday, October 25, 2010

myTunes Monday - Paper Wings

Where do I start with this one?  Of course my life has changed drastically in the last 10 years.  Of course, I wouldn't change any of it for the world and I believe that I'm meant to be here, where I am with my husband and my daughter and the rest of my family.  That, however, was not always the case.

I got married to my first husband very young, I was 21 and he was from overseas... I left Canada and moved to Australia for 3 years.  Everything seemed "just right" in my 21 year old mind.  Then, I woke up one morning and realized that the person I was married to, was heading in a direction I wanted nothing to do with.  He was always, ALWAYS away from home due to his career, and I was forging my way through a new life in a new city, with new friends and new surroundings.  He hated my friends and my need to NOT be alone, and I hated the way he was choosing his career over everything (and everyone) else.

Promises were made, and then broken.  In his mind, there was no such thing as "home" and family were just those people you hang out with on Christmas, and talk to on the phone once every few weeks.  He thought he had it all figured out.  I was trying to figure it all out.  Then, one day, before I realized that it wasn't worth trying to change his mind - it was all over.

Cue the break up song .....  Paper Wings by Rise Against:




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